Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.
I was at a wedding tonight, and this phrase really kinda hit home, after getting out of a relationship. After a rocky 3 and a half years, Aimee is now completely over me, or at least over me enough that she realizes she never wants to be with me again, and I realize I have no one to blame but myself. I know I pushed her away, and even though I now know why I did it, after a couple of months of soul searching, too much damage has been done, and sadly she doesn’t want to give me another chance, which I really can’t blame her after giving me so many other times. I’m just glad of a few things, I’m glad I broke up with her (even though i tried getting back and she didn’t want anything to do with it, yeah, im not proud, im not gonna lie and say it was mutual) but if I didn’t do that initial break up, Aimee might still be with me, and hating me, or hating herself and not happy, and I’d never want that. So I guess in a way, it is sort of a good thing that’s happened, I’ve learned a lot about myself, and can now start to try to fix the problems to make myself better, and not have the problems. I really don’t know why I’m sharing this with the 1 or 2 people that might actually read it, but it’s here anyway. Aimee, if you ever read this, I hope you know how truly sorry I am for everything. I really guess that’s about it on the subject, as it’s pretty much a closed case, nothing is gonna happen there. And god I have to tell you, it really sucks when you push away a good one for stupid reasons, If I had it to do all over again, man it’d be so different, but I don’t, so I guess next time I’m just going to have to learn from these mistakes and do better. Well, I’m exhausted, and AMAZED you actually read this. … blah…whatever.
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